meishan lost her very first battle
backstab.
unethical ways of winning a deal.
business agreement broken.
no doubt about it. meishan lost her very first battle.
a deal worth $11k.
a deal that determines if she can hit her targets.
a deal that most prob will determine if she pass through her probation.
for this April, if you can see the changes in me, the hardwork and determination to give it a final try, u will be able to understand what i am feeling now.
Of course, priority for family still stands as number 1.
went for cousin Pam Pam's graduation.
i'm really happy for her. after many years, she finally made it through.
if only uncle is here to witness everything.
he will definitely be very proud of her.
i can imagine the smiles on his face.
memories start to flash back again when i entered the school compound.
i felt like a student once again.
yes, this time round, i can feel those happiness surrounding me again.
i managed to forget the unhappy stuffs at work for a moment.
only to see the VIP reception area again.
i started to sway away from the happiness feel.
during my graduation,
being the Top student,
my family and i were given the privileges to be in the VIP area.
where only special invited guests can enter those areas.
yes, there was definitely an achievement for me.
interviews after interviews, 2 features on local newspaper.
i was doing so well then.
yet now, i just lost this battle.
a deal that i really worked hard for.
a month i really strived hard.
so much hopes pinned upon.
all lost.
all lost.
unethical ways of winning a deal.
business agreement broken.
no doubt about it. meishan lost her very first battle.
a deal worth $11k.
a deal that determines if she can hit her targets.
a deal that most prob will determine if she pass through her probation.
for this April, if you can see the changes in me, the hardwork and determination to give it a final try, u will be able to understand what i am feeling now.
Of course, priority for family still stands as number 1.
went for cousin Pam Pam's graduation.
i'm really happy for her. after many years, she finally made it through.
if only uncle is here to witness everything.
he will definitely be very proud of her.
i can imagine the smiles on his face.
memories start to flash back again when i entered the school compound.
i felt like a student once again.
yes, this time round, i can feel those happiness surrounding me again.
i managed to forget the unhappy stuffs at work for a moment.
only to see the VIP reception area again.
i started to sway away from the happiness feel.
during my graduation,
being the Top student,
my family and i were given the privileges to be in the VIP area.
where only special invited guests can enter those areas.
yes, there was definitely an achievement for me.
interviews after interviews, 2 features on local newspaper.
i was doing so well then.
yet now, i just lost this battle.
a deal that i really worked hard for.
a month i really strived hard.
so much hopes pinned upon.
all lost.
all lost.
posted by mEishAn at 7:45 PM
2 Comments:
Pouring yr heart out again ah? Have been busy myself quite recently... then came one day when I met gandang and while talking to her, I suddenly rmb u and asked her about you.
"Go read her blog, damn emo"
... Sorry shan, not there for u when u r facing all these. But u know, u can always give me a call if u want to vent out.
No battle, no gain
No loss, no win
No risk, no discovery
Life is a journey of discovering oneself. And u r doing perfectly fine... at least, u lead yr own life, i can see that and i m proud of you
btw, on a sidenote..our heart lies in the centre, tilted to the left. [ from the assumingly bio tb girl]
I believe it's comforting to know that even if you lost a battle, you haven't lost yourself in that world. Isn't that better?
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